S.F. I hope you get the help you need. I've come so far since writing my original comment, and I have told sooooo many more people. I got to the point where recovery was more important than worrying about what other people think. I had thought I had to save my pride by hiding my ED, but now I can look at all I've overcome and I've never been more proud of myself!!! And the people I thought would judgement me or think less of me are actually proud of me too! I'm still on my recovery journey, encountering struggles along the way, but I have no regrets getting the help I needed!! For your sake and your daughters' sake (they know when Mommy is struggling, no matter how well you think you're hiding it), I pray you find the courage to seek help......you deserve it!