Hi shh, Yes thank you - So far going well I feel my space that it"s there - Am happy that I feel in control and there is time for me - am breathing as much as I can to bring myself back when I feel panic- Our relationship has improved over the years and she wants to be a part of my life - am hoping it continues like this and we both can have our own space......Mostly I want to not hide anything from her - no secrets ......right now I feel very consciously aware that I can handle this and not to overdo anything so I can stay balanced and calm!! - Will keep you all posted and thanks all for your support- It's nice to share with people that understand - Thank you xx