Tracy...I will be thinking of you tomorrow! I can remember vividly the sessions when I couldn't speak, couldn't even cope with being sat in the room with my therapist asking me to elaborate on how I was feeling, a couple of times I got really adrenaliney and physically got up and fled, I just had to get out....and once outside, I would feel instant relief, but then "what do I do with myself now?"...and start to feel lousy and stupid for running out on my therapist and wasting her time and mine. You will get to the point of "bearing the pain" Tracy...maybe not this week, but whatever happens in your session is probably what you need to do in order to prepare yourself for the 'bearing' that lies ahead. Stay strong, and be brave! xx