Thank you for the warm welcome. For me, knowledge has been helpful in moving forward. I don't want to be stuck. I don't want to cause myself pain or give myself reason to punish. I don't want to punish others. There are plenty of days where I think--off with you ED, into the past you go. I don't need you. Look at me here eating like a normal person. Then I notice that I'm talking to myself internally, that everything on my plate is gone, that it's only been two minutes since we said grace. I haven't engaged in conversation and my children are annoying me because they are complaining or fussing with their food....I think I'll be around for awhile yet :).