PTC...I used to feel that way, (had my ED for 25+ yrs, 4-5 years of searching for the courage to ask for help, and 8 years of trying to find the right treatment, but in the last 6 months I feel like I've found it) it will come - one day someone will say something or you will think something that moves your attempts to deal with your ED to a different level, and then you will start to see the rewards of your efforts and start to believe that you are going to get there!