I've got tears while I'm reading this post because I have not been loyal to myself lately and all of this makes sense. I was doing well and then I let the emotions get to me and I let things slip for a couple of weeks and now I'm back in anxiety land with blood sugar swings and messed up ED appetite signals and physical pain. I guess I abandoned myself. If I switch over to the mountain theory, I guess I never fully left myself, I just wasn't loyal to my needs. I have been loyal to many people. So I guess I just need to be loyal to me now.