I think that I have "left" behind my general zest for life. I stay busy with my job, kids, and their extracurricular activities, yet I feel very isolated. I don't enjoy spending time with my friends and family as I used to. I have left behind my compassion and concern for others, as I have become very self focused and selfish. I am not being critical of myself here; I am being honest. I miss the person I used to be, I have left this behind. I am consumed with "me" and my thoughts. I do not neglect my children, but I know I do not give as much to them emotionally as I could, or as I used to. This would be the first thing I would like to get back in my recovery.