I don't know how to tell my family that I would like to get more intensive treatment, or atleast take a leave of absence from work so I can focus on all this stuff without the extra stress and distraction. Somehow taking care of oneself in my family (doing positive, relaxing, away things without one's kids) is not something that is deserved. Perseverance until you have a breakdown is more the norm. The conversation would go more like this from my mom's end.."well isn't it nice you get to go out for the night without your kids...I never got to do that"....and so on. Somehow asking her to watch my kids for 30 days would not be a fun endeavor. tracy