Hi PTC You might want to have a look at this link, to Joanna's workbook, "Triumphant Journey", there are sections that explain about inner secrets and help you to start fathoming out what yours are. http://eatingdisorderrecovery.com/index.php/help-yourself/the-workbook This was the thing that made me realise that I had an ED, and needed to get help. Shh xxxx