This is excellent news, Tracy.  If you feel something, then you know it's possible to feel it.  It's real.  You are not hoping to feel it or trying to feel it or hearing someone else talk about feeling it.  You are actually feeling it.

This is solid evidence your psyche takes in that you can feel it because you are feeling it or because you have felt it.   One second of feeling this can grow to two seconds or ten minutes.

That can grow to half an hour or half a day or more.

You've started the process of making the turn toward recovery with a glimipse of new possibiities.

"I am not totally disgusting. Just go with it."   Right on.  Just go with a fleeting glimpse of self acceptance and see where the self care and self respect associated with that will take you.

Thank you so much for sharing this, Tracy.