Brava, Kym. You are eloquent when you say your only need the strength to do the right thing, right now. Please remember that you can find the support you need to continue your recovery by working with a psychotherapist on a regular basis after your day treatment. God works through people. You use the strength you have and work with the right person who will help you develop more strength. As the earth can hold you completely as you are, you can learn to hold yourself as your are. And your therapist can help to hold you while you are transitioning. The lovely thing is that the earth holds you and your therapist as you move on your recovery path. Have you read Silko? I've just discovered her. Thank you for writing. J P.S. I love "Faith it until you make it!"