This story is my attempt to bring understanding to this painful, desperate and all too common experience in the life of a bulimic woman. It could be triggering.  But I wrote this because articulating the extent of a bulimic episode in detail can help a woman know she can be understood and accepted. If she can feel known in her darkest hours she may experience a new sense of hope and reach for her recover.

Aftermath of Sexual Encounter

Do you recognize the two main influences that propel you to the slippery slope and undermine your eating disorder recovery?

1.   Anyone who supports your symptoms rather than your recovery. Be wary and alert when someone encourages you to starve or invites you to join them in a binge.

2.   Eating disorders distort your thinking and your perceptions. Under the influence of that distortion you can rationalize and justify eating disorder behaviors. That justification puts you well on the slippery slope to relapse.

Part 3 Dangerous Sexual Encounter - a variation on the previous option

 This story is my attempt to bring understanding to this painful, desperate and all too common experience in the life of a bulimic woman. It could be triggering.  I wrote this because articulating the extent of a bulimic episode in detail can help a woman know she can be understood and accepted. If she can feel known in her darkest hours she may experience a new sense of hope and reach for her recovery.

You’re in the car driving. You can’t think of anyone to call. You still are in the state where you want someone to be glad to be with you and match your energy. Where is this man?

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