Eating Disorders fill in the blanks for people. When you can't cope with something you use your eating disorder to get through the situation.....even if you don't understand what the situation is. Mmm. Maybe especially if you don't know what the situation is. So often an urge to binge or a terrific anxiety seems to come out of nowhere, and your eating disorder behaviors seem like the only way to take care of yourself.
If something is missing in you and has been missing all your life, you won't know it. You will feel a sense of inexplicable bewilderment or fear or terror, as if you