yes, this is a different kind of vulnerable. I know I am moving in a different direction. It is the right direction, but unfamiliar, so scary and "dangerous", and threatens all I rely on to "protect" me. Thank you for taking so much time to walk thru this with me...I will go back and read this often in the next while as I struggle thru this part of recovery. I don't think it will benefit me to go backwards...and yes, it is a frantic feeling....just tell me it gets easier...thank you again, so much. so feeling is bearing....ok...wow tracy