thanks guys :) Yes, PTC, I do feel the abuse and the eating disorder are related. I was doing better when I was seeing my therapist more often until 4 years ago. I have started back up with her again and I am hopeful that I can begin to feel better again. I have not considered a program for either trama or my eating disorder. I am not doing so badly that I need a program for my eating stuff, although sometimes I wish I could just go somewhere and take care of myself for once. shh, thanks for the suggestion. I am not sure how I could get you my information privately. There are good support groups in my area as well, and I just need to get to one.