Thank you, Joanna, for this positive perspective on trying again. A good reminder. My experience is that "healing" from an abusive relationship with food is a long process. I'm nearly fifty, and when I look back on my life, I see that the thread of my unhealthy relationship with eating stretches back to my childhood. It may be the biggest constant in my life. I have made so much progress in self-knowledge, in becoming more conscious of my self, in revisiting and touching early trauma... yet, when the heat comes on---some stress in my life, perhaps not fully perceived---the lure of numbing myself with food asserts itself again. I like your reminder that these reassertions simply point to work still to be done. Yet part of me is tired... will the work ever really be done? Or will this relationship with food be my companion for the next fifty years as well?