struggling with motherhood and being overwhelmed with my special needs child. trying to find ways to detach from her meltdowns and screaming that are daily. I don't like taking medications to feel calmer. I can't find those special relaxing moments nor can I find a moment for a PAM when she is screaming. My stomach is in knots every afternoon when she comes home from school. I love her. I need to find a way to figure her out. You would think I would know by now. I have really begun to figure out my issues and settle down. But this issue befuddles me. Need a huge hug today...