It is so hard to sit still when your mind is constantly obsessing on food issues. I am sitting here tonight feeling so depressed and hopeless about this whole thing. I feel miserable because I resorted to a past coping mechanism for eating lunch today. While sitting in the quietness tonight, however, I had a very sudden time travel back to age 12. These feelings I have now - being the emotions, the fear, the obsessions, the hopelessness - are the EXACT