if we can hide our eating disorder from people for so long (the thing that makes us the most "not ok") then we can hide just about any other feeling or emotion. shh, I definitely know your burden...I know how you are feeling right now. I also know you are struggling so hard with the pending end to your sessions. hmmmm, there was a blog post on here somewhere from someone that was a guest blogger...she wrote a book...something about emotional healing ...a workbook..can't remember the name, but I thought about you when I read the post last night..it sounds like something you could use right now. I wish I knew a way to tell you how to open up to people and how to let someone supportive know when you aren't ok...because I haven't mastered that. I am just now starting to learn how to not ADD to my stress by practicing the word "no"...doesnt mean I know how to ask for help. i hope your day goes better. have you told your therapist how badly you are feeling about the sessions ending?