I guess the things that spring to mind are... ...finding it hard to accept that there is no "cure", that this is a lifelong battle & committment ...desperately wanting to fool yourself that you're in recovery, even when you're not ...finding the self belief and self worth to be able to see that there is light at the end of the tunnel ...being honest with yourself when you are so used to living a life of lies ...trusting yourself to bear the hurt, pain, tears and anguish that are part of the journey