I am trying to understand this, and have had to read it several times. I think the biggest thing I take from this, as far as how it relates to me, is that, at my core, I do feel quite worthless. I think many people who know me would be shocked to know this. I spend an amazing amount of time faking a confident, happy demeanor. It is tiring. I am working through all of this, of course, but I guess I am just saying that I do identify with what you are saying.