Hi Joanna - my book arrived and was just reading this chapter! The first words which struck me were you have probably looked for many ways of recovery etc. then i stopped and felt defeated again already..just that thought lets my mind jumps in and say yeah right so what makes you think you can do it this time!! Am in a phase of huge resistance right now- like I can't do it - i can't see or connect to myself as healthy.am trying some technique with my therapist at the moment to reprogramme my sub conscious mind to accept being in a healthy body- I'm feeling frustrated and defeated cos I cant connect to what that looks like! - ok just sharing will try and continue with the book- feels like I need some extra strength to get through this next phase and trust it will work....."this time" !