Dear Tracy, There's no healthy place to run away from yourself. But... instead of run run run think about rest rest rest. The experience you are describing requires a lot of energy. If you drain yourself of energy you will be even more vulnerable -- more vulnerable than you need to be. Please remember the old Zen koan: Eat when hungry, drink when thirsty, sleep when tired. ---- not more but not less. 12 step says the same thing: don't get too hungry. don't get too thirsty. don't get too tired Keep this in mind. You may be pleasantly surprised how these basic guidelines will help you.