Dear Spazzy bob, When you have an eating disorder, no fundamental change in going for positive self care is as straightforward as it sounds. The eating disorder is there to care for you when you can't. When you take over your self care, even in what seems to be small and insignificant ways, the loosen the grip of your eating disorder. Suddenly issues need to be confronted. The issues vary with everyone, but they come up for everyone. If you want something reasonable and simple, like being able to be cosy and safe in bed reading a book, you have to clear the obstacles that prevent you from having that. Your real challenge is not about food. It's about allowing awareness to come in, caring about yourself and clearing obstacles that prevent you from living a good life. This is why obsessions with weight and diets interfere with genuine recovery work.The obsessions deflect your focus from the real work necessary to be free of an eating disorder and live well.