Dear Kym, You are in the true heart of recovery work! Brava! Yes, it's hard, but not as hard as living with the agonies of an eating disorder for so many years. Yes, you need support at this time, and yes you have the courage, honesty and willingness to put that support in your life. The grat news thats coming is that all the places within you that you feel are weak not have an opportunity to develop and grow. You are in the zone of work now that will make you healthy and strong. Please keep sharing on this site. I am here to support you and your words will help others when they face the critical choices you are facely so bravely and well.