Summary
This article explores the essential dual roles of fierceness and tenderness in eating disorder recovery, especially when rooted in trauma. It invites you to rethink assumptions about people-pleasing and compassion. Additionally, it introduces tools for cultivating self-responsiveness, healthy boundaries, and self-love. Fierceness is not aggression, and tenderness is not weakness. Together, they form the backbone of authentic healing.
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1. Beyond Food and Weight: What Fierceness and Tenderness Reveal About Eating Disorder Recovery
To begin with, eating disorder recovery is not just about food, weight, or appearance. For many, especially those with trauma histories, the eating disorder often served or still serves as a survival strategy. In fact, people are unaware they have experienced trauma. Abusive behavior may have been so familiar that they considered it normal or what they deserved, never recognizing the toll it took. Consequently, recovery, therefore, becomes a journey of self-reclamation. It's about healing the relationship with the Self and reawakening the capacity for presence, choice, and emotional honesty.
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2. Trauma and Eating Disorders: Why Fierceness and Tenderness Are Essential for Recovery
Not all eating disorders are trauma-based, but a significant number are. When trauma is present, it often leaves behind invisible patterns. For instance, abuse, neglect, chronic invalidation, or relational instability can lead to disordered eating as a form of self-regulation.
Signs of unresolved trauma in recovery include:
- Dissociation or emotional numbing
- Hypervigilance or panic around food
- Shame around rest, needs, or dependency
- A felt sense that your body is not your own
In this context, understanding trauma as the root context helps explain why fierceness and tenderness are not luxuries—they're survival tools.
Recommended Reading:
- Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score – https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/227264/the-body-keeps-the-score-by-bessel-van-der-kolk-md/
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3. Fierceness in Eating Disorder Recovery: Standing Up for the Self
Let's start with fierceness is the refusal to abandon yourself.
Importantly, fierceness is not about rage or dominance. Rather, it's about declaring:
- I matter.
- I will not live in submission to my eating disorder.
- I will not live in submission to other people to avoid punishment or rejection
- I will no longer accept exploitation.
- I will no longer be self-sacrificing with no recognition or appreciation.
- I will protect the parts of me that were never protected.
Fierce moments may include:
- Saying no to a harmful person or behavior
- Resisting relapse during vulnerable times
- Showing up for therapy when you want to disappear
- Stepping into activities you love but never dared claim for yourself.
According to trauma expert Peter Levine, reclaiming your "fight" energy is essential for trauma healing. Fierceness is not the enemy—it's your nervous system remembering how to defend life.
Source: Peter Levine, Waking the Tiger – https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/72613
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4. Tenderness in Recovery: How Gentle Self-Compassion Heals Trauma
Just as important as fierceness is tenderness. In essence, tenderness is the act of being gentle with your wounds.
If fierceness is protection, then tenderness is healing.
Here are some ways tenderness might appear:
- Letting yourself rest without guilt
- Speaking kindly to your inner child
- Holding your pain without shame
- Giving yourself moments and then hours and days of joyful experiences
Additionally, researcher Kristin Neff points out, self-compassion is a measurable, effective form of emotional resilience.
Learn More: Kristin Neff, Self-Compassion – https://self-compassion.org
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5. Integrating Fierceness and Tenderness for Sustainable Eating Disorder Recovery
To truly recover, one without the other is incomplete:
- Fierceness without tenderness becomes punishment.
- Tenderness without fierceness becomes avoidance.
Integration involves:
- Learning to discern which energy is needed when
- Being flexible, self-aware, and respectful of your limits
- In everyday practice, using the mantra: "This is hard—and I can do hard things."
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6. People-Pleasing in Recovery: Replacing Fear with Fierce and Tender Boundaries
People-pleasing is not kindness. In fact, it's often a trauma-driven survival strategy.
Rooted in the fawn trauma response, people-pleasing may show up as:
- Overextending to avoid conflict show up as
- Losing your identity in service to others
In these cases, confusing compliance with connection becomes a way of life. Therefore, this distinction matters. Tenderness is not people-pleasing. Real tenderness doesn't erase your boundaries—it protects them.
Related Insight: Janina Fisher, Healing the Fragmented Selves of Trauma Survivors – https://www.routledge.com/Healing-the-Fragmented-Selves-of-Trauma-Survivors/Fisher/p/book/9780415708235
7. When Fierceness Rises in Eating Disorder Recovery
At some point in recovery, internal limits are reached. When that moment comes, a quiet or explosive shift happens:
Examples include:
- Leaving a toxic job.
- Saying no without apology.
- Walking away from a one-sided relationship.
- Recognizing sabotage and refusing to accept it.
- Being able to walk away when necessary.
You may not know why, but you know you can't keep going as you were. This is not rebellion—it's emergence.
8. Navigating Pushback: Fierceness, Tenderness, and Identity Shifts in Recovery
Inevitably, others may resist your shift.
Some common reactions include:
- "You've changed."
- "You're selfish now."
- "You're not who I thought you were."
In truth, they may never have imagined you had boundaries—or dreams of your own.
Remember: their confusion does not make your fierceness wrong. It makes it necessary.
9. Recovery Tools: Cultivating Fierceness and Tenderness in Healing
To develop these qualities, consider these simple but powerful practices.
To Embody Fierceness, try developing these habits:
- Fierce Stance: Push hands into a wall and affirm, "I will not abandon myself."
- Boundary Journal: Record each moment you honored or betrayed a limit.
When Cultivating Tenderness, you might begin with:
- Compassion Break (Neff): "This is a moment of suffering. May I be kind to myself."
- Letter to Younger Self: Acknowledge and validate past pain with kindness.
10. Reclaiming the Self: Becoming Fierce and Tender in Eating Disorder Recovery
Above all, you are not here to support others' dreams at the expense of your own.
It is not wrong to need boundaries. You are not broken for needing them.. You are not hard or cold or uncaring for saying no.
In truth, you are reclaiming the right to be whole.
FAQ
Q: Isn't fierceness just a form of anger? A: No. Fierceness is protective energy, not reactive aggression. It's grounded in values, not vengeance.
Q: I feel guilty when I set boundaries—is that normal? A: Yes. Guilt often accompanies healing when you challenge internalized beliefs that prioritizing yourself is wrong.
Q: What if I don't feel fierce or tender? A: Numbness is a typical trauma response. With time, safety, and support, access to both energies returns.
Q: Can people-pleasing be a healthy behavior? A: Empathy and kindness are healthy. People-pleasing driven by fear, shame, or a need to earn love is not.
Q: Where can I learn more about this? contact Joanna Poppink, MFT;
- The Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast – https://recoverywarriors.com/podcast/
- Trauma Rewired Podcast – https://neurobiologyoftrauma.com
- On Being with Krista Tippett (especially episodes on self-compassion) – https://onbeing.org
For articles related to this topic on Joanna's site see:
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Self-Compassion and Emotional Healing
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Self-Care Eating Disorder Recovery Plan and Q & A
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/self-care-eating-disorder-recovery-plan-and-q-a -
Self-Compassion: The Antidote to Emotional Overeating
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/holidays-and-special-occasions/self-compassion-the-antidote-to-emotional-overeating
🔹 Trauma and Recovery
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Reclaim Inner Freedom: How Authoritarian Systems and Trauma Limit You
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/psychotherapy-and-recovery-work/reclaim-inner-freedom-how-authoritarian-systems-and-trauma-limit-you -
Power vs. Control: A Life-Changing Distinction for Healing and Survival
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/psychotherapy-and-recovery-work/power-vs-control-a-life-changing-distinction-for-healing-and-survival
🔹 Boundaries and Identity in Recovery
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Reflections on Eating Disorder Recovery: Development and Narcissistic Abuse
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/psychotherapy-and-recovery-work/reflections-on-eating-disorder-recovery-development-and-narcissistic-abuse-2 -
Getting Through Obstacles to Eating Disorder Recovery
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/psychotherapy-and-recovery-work/getting-through-obstacles-to-eating-disorder-recovery
🔹 Psychotherapy and Personal Growth
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Love in Psychotherapy is the Heart of Healing and Growth
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/psychotherapy-and-recovery-work/why-love-is-the-heart-of-effective-psychotherapy -
Psychotherapy Benefits: Psychotherapy and Transformation at Any Age
https://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.net/cultivating-resilience/psychotherapy-and-transformation
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Joanna Poppink, MFT, licensed in CA, OR, FL, AZ; private practice psychotherapy. For free consultation, contact her at
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