Mmmm.  "A wise man [or woman] will make more opportunities than he [or she] finds."
~Sir Francis Bacon

I spent two weeks feeling dark, stuck, lost. I spent those same two weeks thinking about how much light, opportunity and solid home I have. But feeling and thinking can be at odds with each other. My thoughts were good, and I felt terrible. I was at the end of many paths. This was a beginning.

Almost every description of people with active eating disorders includes a statement about low self-esteem. You may not realize you have low self-esteem because you think that how you feel about yourself is based on your permanent personality. 

I invite you to try out these tips and see if they bring positive changes to your outlook and maybe even your life. *pix

When you are alone and down in the dumps what supports you?

First, naturally, you cry or moan. You look to who or what you believe or expect to carry you through your trials. When they don’t show up for you or are inadequate when they do you feel unknown and abandoned. You may lose sleep or get angry or overeat or storm around your home. You may  experience all these things and more.

But when you calm down, either through despair or just plain fatigue, and none of your expectations for rescue come through, where are you?

Finding my way back to these pages is a challenge.  I want to be here with you. My intention is clear: to suppport recovery and the new more fulfilled life when recovery begins to be established. My intention and committment is the same as it ever was.

Yet, I've had so many experiences since my last post I discover I don't fit into the perspective I had before.  My vision changed, expanded, deepened. I've come through pain, medical crisis, relationship clarity, romance, adventure, change in body chemistry and creative inspiration.  I'm more alive than I have been in a long time and didn't even know this kind of life force energy was available to me.

The main guiding principle I've learned is this:

Withdraw from what shuts me down. Step into what opens me up. Stay aware so I have the choice.

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